Monday, October 10, 2011
Old Fools Journal: Inspiration and Where Can I Buy Some?
I am really at a loss when my Inspiration dries up. I usually have some tucked in a corner somewhere but as often as not when I drag it out it's the wrong kind. I don't know if it can be invented but I don't seem to be able to. I have to wait until I stumble over it. These days when I feel a shortage coming on I start looking. If I'm out entirely then I look harder. The only other option in this case is despair.
Until a few years ago I could not live without a goal. I thought I had to have one no matter how small but then one day I didn't have one and it was O.K. I liked it better when I had one but it was O.K.
I'm not talking about short range goals like stacking a little fire wood for the winter or laying a fire in the stove for the next cold morning even though they are satisfying. I'm talking about setting off to cross an ocean or learning to shoe horses or even building a tree house. Something that will take time and effort to prepare for as well as do. Something a tad dangerous.
I have queued up some projects but they will be over so quick I hesitate to start them. I look forward to the end of the day so I can stop thinking about this subject for a while. There is nothing so relaxing as having a tooth ache, being scheduled for brain surgery or execution as it takes your mind off this little problem.
Meanwhile acorns are raining from the trees as they do every two years and the TV is on yelling at me in Spanish which is part of the ongoing goal to become fluent in that language. It has been ongoing for about 50 years. I sometimes understand what they are saying because of the visual but even then sometimes I don't. When I started many years ago it seemed like a string of gibberish but now it's a lot of individual words strung together most of which I have no idea of the meaning. It does cause me to look up words. I try to watch a little Mexican soap opera each day. It's shallow and inane but they use everyday words like everyday people do and overact so I can sometimes get the meaning. I mimic the speech patterns but leave out the over acting. Well, for the most part anyway as I like to overact the bandido stuff. They seem to have bandido's in everything.
I mostly use the TV for watching videos of something I'm trying to learn like Spanish. It's off now because there is only so much I can stand. One thing about watching the news in Spanish is they have better looking sexpots for announcers than Americans do. I like that. Sexpots are OK in any language.
I have been told that my pronunciation and accent is very good. So I guess that means that whatever nonsense I'm spouting the words are completely understandable even if the meaning is incomprehensible. I should do politics. I'd fit right in. Comprende?
My bride SWMBO just brought these fresh from the oven so I have to go now.